Happy Valentine's day!
I have yet to really experience Valentine's day with someone special, but that doesn't make me despise the day like most others. I think it is a great day to show love towards your special someone, and yes I agree you should treat your lover like it's Valentine's every day, but that will NEVER HAPPEN! So for one day a year, 95% of all couples have a day full of love and express a true desire for one another, is that such a bad thing? I don't think so, and I know some day, hopefully soon, I will get to experience my special Valentine's Day. But until then, I will happily wish every couple I know a Happy Valentine's Day full of love <3... End Rant =)
I really suck at keeping things updated, and that goes for this as well... I figured today would be a good day considering it's a holiday, and I think today I have finally accepted something that I have been finding very difficult to accept. I have come to realise that I may have had feelings for someone to find out it's too late.... I don't know if I truly have a love for him, or if it's just me always wanting what I know I can't have... Either way, it still hits me where it hurts. I'm glad to see him happy, and knowing that I can finally put an end to this back and forth game we have been playing with each other, is in a way a relief. I guess I know now that it is time to move on, and to start looking somewhere else for my special someone. It's finding that courage to actually move on I need a little help with. As I type this, it's as if I am finally accepting it and I am shedding the only tears I will let myself cry. He seems to be happy, so now it's my turn to wipe away my tears, lift my head up and find the same happiness. Time for me to grow up, and accept that we are friends and that is all it will be. I always seem to fall for the ones I can't have...
I'm ready to date, but dating scares me.... Lol I think I might be in trouble....
XoXoXo
Krissy
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